fifteen

yey!! fifteen more days of school left!!! i love love love this one song by aj rafal and jesse barrera called she was mine. thanks to charlie for playing in the car. today, i went to volunteerin at Stone Canyon Creek and we were pulling out weeds the whole time. and i feel bad for leaving early ... cause they were all working hard and .. haha. i won't say but anyways. i'm listening to lydia paek and i like her voice! i really wanna cut my hair after prom like short! but guys supposedly like long hair, but then again, shouldn't i be pleasing myself? yes i should be pleasing myself. lol. after we went to the volunteer place, charlie went to ucla to do "free ninety nine". it doesn't bother me though since i used to do that for drinks with my brother. then we went to innout and then i went to diddy reese's which was bomb then rose, connie, and jean came over my house and jean showed me youtube videos and some snl vids whie connie and rose slept cause that volunteering shit was tiring heh. and then we left and i dropped them off while i had a nice piano lesson and got to see the cutie hehe

so now, i am at home relaxing and lazing off. i need to start studying for the SATs which are next week, and i am going to start to read my SAT booklet everyday from now on till next saturday .. shite. i really need to get a good score otherwise i'm fucking screwed. but then i have the whole summer to study my ass off.

but i am going to go and laze around.

tata

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sixteen more days. i finally finished the song with esther thank god. one down four more to go. (meaning projects) but yea. sixteen more days. oh man my mom is doing more then she can handle. i need to help, i'm guilt trippin so bad, and i wanna find a job so i can relieve her at least little bit. that's the only reason i wanna find a job. like i dont wanna rely on her for money. i know i've already been over this but this recession we're in isn't helping at all. like people say, oh you're doing it for the money huh? yeah i'm doing it for the money, but i have a purpose behind it.

anyways, i've been feeling moody, bloated, bitchy, sad, lately. but thats all gonna end soon. hopefully in a day or two. anyways, tomorrow is the 2010 fundraiser and saturday is volunteering at UCLA woot woot. um, i need to call that lady from Cedars. dude, so little time left but so much to do. i have to do:

We Didn't Start the Fire project - June 2
Ecocolumn - June 5
Animal Behavior - June 12?
English Research Paper - June 12
Scrapbook - June 15?

and i need to start getting A's on my tests in math analysis so i can get a stupid A in that class as well as AP Bio. And i need to turn in my essays, but mr. lord hasn't said anything so far so idk. hahaha, but i'd rather wait until he inputs it into the computer ... heheh. i am so bad. anyways, i need some rest because i didn't have any last night, so i'll try to type more later.

tats.

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I GOT INTO CEDARS!! and only twelve people got in, shoutouts to minar! haha. anyways, so i was right and i was being moody cause i started my rag today or was it yesterday. sorry if it's tmi. haha. anyways, i need to get my act together no joke. starting from tomorrow i am going to start to. i have to do the math hw, turn in my books, do the project, finish doing the bio essays, and start on the deng apbio project. so much shit to do! AND my english research paper... fuck. and these are all due in june! fuck man! i have to sleep though cause its 1:14 am now. so bye

toodleoodles

fat

i feel sooooooooooo fattttt!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay, saturday was maureen's dinner party at tahoe galbi and stevie ordered at least ten plates ... and then today was the food for naomi's thing. and then tomorrow is food at fucking el dorado park. i wanna be skinny or slender for once! and not thick! i need to start exercising more ... and watch what i eat. like seriously. i was doing so well ... but anyways. both days were pretty fun except for the part where i had to wait in ghetto nation at dockweiler beach for tesia and tillman to come ... for two hours. thanks to the nice latino that lent me his phone to call naomi. and thank god i memorized naomi's numero! but yea then we could NOT find any firepits so we all went to victor's and alex's apartment and finished our hot dogs there. i think i am about to start my rag because i am feeling bitchy about everything and my self esteem is so low right now. and i am usually not like this. fuck. man. i just want school to end at get six a's and one b in only apush. and i still didnt even start on the stupid projects! man. i need to run through the finish line. i want to write about more things but i am not sure what so i'm just gonna ramble on. i love the postal service. like listening to such great heights makes me feel like i am underwater in the ocean with the sun rays hittin through. i think i am going to go through my postal service phase again. i am feeling philosophical right now. like the sun and the planet earth. you know i had a dream that i was flying upside down in the upside down part of earth and i was falling but i flipped right side up because of the gravity. it was super super weird. brand new colony - the postal service.

i think i have ADD no joke. cause i get distracted REALLY easily. and i'm not talking about the computer alone but stuff like the wind moving the tree's leaves or just plain daydreaming. i mea i can focus real well but its just that yea. i need something to keep me on track. and when i went to alex/victor's apartment, it made me realize that i want my own apartment haha. it would be fun to have to do my own dishes and laundry and shit. and being free from so much things. i mean yea there are bills and all but honestly, i think all the fun parts override the bad things ..

i don't wanna write too long that it makes you just give up reading my posts so i am going to go fall asleep and be pissed off that i have to go to el dorado park ... tata

bs <3

NINETEEN

hah, so i'm listening to philipbyun's music and honestly they bring me peace. check them out here but yea. so i'm talking to my senior friend and its sort of hitting me in the face that i am almost in fuckin college you know? and like right now all the seniors are probably getting ready for prom. i am so excited and sad for next year. sad that i am getting older yet excited for the things that are going to come. there are only nineteen days left 'till school is done! i am so lazy right now, and i feel like going for a bike ride. maybe i should go all the way to venice beach and back? heh. i have all the time in the world too. well, imma go get some exercise done.

ill type later

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hallo thar. it is 12:24 am.
good bye.

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o lordy lordy. today was such an adventure filled day filled with soooo much laughter and gratitude. so, there was CSTs as usual and i was super tired since i slept at two a.m. (of which i am still tired) so anyways, afterschool was the AP Gov meeting and i finished that shit fast. and after that, i was super bored and had nothing to do ... so texted up people to see what they were doing and while i was at the bus stop, i ran into julie and connie who were supposed to go to Pearl but it was taking a long ass time. then i ask them if they wanted to play and they said "okay". so we went to farmer's market to buy some yum yums since we were hungry and we bought the brazilian bbq. that shit is bomb. i want to go to brazil with gabi this winter :( but yes. so after brazilin bbq, we go to plb to meet up with jean to play and eat. and we were jus chillin and trying to play games. then we go to her house and look at yearbooks and also because julie had to pee. haha. SINCE THIRD PERIOD. poor thing. then connie wanted to head home so we followed the momma duckling to her house but before that we wanted to drop by aaron's house but unfortunately he wasn't there. then we went to the house and into the room and i forget what we started to do .. but later that day on the way back from walking julie out was when the fun all started. so there was this little boy entering the building, and me stupidly feeling hyper was doing monster status on the boy but secretly. and then we enter the elevator but the boy's mom come in! and i'm trippin out cause i thought she saw me do that to him. and then she leaves on the second floor. and then there was this indian man that left on the third and me and connie squished into the corner and tried to close the door but it wouldn't close. and we were giggling like crazy cause before that i slapped her boobies super hard. and then when we go to the fourth floor, she presses all the buttons and me being stupidly crazy again, makes sure all the buttons are pressed, even the lower levels and start pressing the buttons like a mad scientist. and when the door opens im still pressing the buttons and there is this indian man staring at me like i am CUHRAZY so, i run away following connie collapsing onto her entrance floor. oh man, and then we go into her room and i eat chapaghetti and we start to look at funny videos and then we kill our stomachs with the college humor one that tries to legalize shrooms "I was fired now i am watered." but yes. oh today was fun.

i am sick. i am coughing and sick. but no stuffy nose. strange. maybe i have the swine flu. haha jkjk. h1n1! but i am tired and i won't get better like this, so i must feel better by sleeping early! mucho amor to everyone. toodle-oo.

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i miss the chill days, where i didn't have to worry about anything, and each day was filled with fun ...

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hi thur, today was a very busy day for me. well not very busy, but fun packed. um, i went to the carnival to volunteer at hancock elementary school. it wasn't really a carnival but more like a festival. no rides and such, but i had to wake up early for that. it was like waking up on a school day. but yea, i arrived around 7:50 - 8:00 a.m. and signed in and then helped out with the foods and shit. i felt like i didnt really do much and was just lazing around and "helping" out. i got a pretty cool henna but it's super faded cause i think i left it on for twoo short of a time, and i put water on it. but now i have a feeling that i am super obssessed about hennas now. not the dark black ones or the ones at venice, but the ones that indian people do. they're super pretty. anyways, so yea, i WAS planning to see miles today but my mom was sick and i didn't wanna transport some sickness to poor miles. i am definately going to see him and emo next weekend. but from the carnival, i took the bus home and took a shower thinking i was going to see him, but then i ended up not going. then i went to my piano lesson and I SAW THE CUTIE HELLA GOOD PIANO PLAYER hhehehe. and i hope that he is after me all the time now since my lesson is at 6:30 PM ehehehehe. i am such a creep/weirdo but that's just who i am and that's why people love me. cause i am a creep/weirdo. i also have a jaw fetish and a skinship fetish. i like touching people. ahahha. anways, so after piano lesson i came home and massaged my mom for an hour which she gives me ten bucks for. then i went ice skating which was super fun even though it was just me and natasha. i fell .. *sad face. lol and when i did i felt it go in slow motion and i just layed there splayed out for a couple seconds before getting up. super embarrassing. i love ice skating. i love all ice sports. but yes that was my day, and now i must go to sleep since i am super tired.

i also feel like i've gotten even closer to naomi cause of the conversation we've had at chipotle on friday. and shoutouts to sandy, i still like being your low key psychologist. i like lending ears to people. didja realeyes? enweis, i'm tire-ud. must go to shreep so i shall type later kay? bye.

tata.

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hay thur! my days thes days are SOOOO good. and i just deflea'd mah dog but she's still itching and i think its from the bites. her skin is SO red. i hate the fucking fleas. honestly, the ONE question i am going to ask God when i go to heaven is WHAT WAS YOUR PURPOSE OF MAKING FLEAS, TICKS, AND MOSQUITOES DEAR GOD!!!! but yea, that is the one question i would ask him. i am typing too fst for my computr because it is forgetting th vowels that im typing or some tpe of letter .. anyways, the computer is acting stupid so i am going to go to sleep ... wait up no its not haha. but i do have to go to sleep cause it is 12:14 AM so i must go

toodleoodles.

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I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MY FRIGGIN APS! man am i so happy! but now, i gotta study for SATs in june, and i have to do a couple of shoes and then imma focus on playing the guitar and selfteaching myself to play. so, now i am going to work on gabi's shoes, well, first i have to plan it out. hehe. and then partying this weekend i hope keke. o my goddd, may is going by so fast! its already second week! shite.

today was a fun day sorta. me, jean, and sandy busted a mission to get out of school by calling each other and saying we were all sick. haha. then we went to the grove and ate chipotle and jean went to forever 21 to buy a white t-shirt and me and sandy went to the french crepe co to eat a yummy ass crepe, but i think sandy got ragtagged cause she's geting all these headaches and cravings lmao. cause first she ate chipotle, then the crepe and then while we're eating crepe she says ... i want cheesecake. lol! anyways after that we went to victoria secret to get our measures .. of which i am very embarrassed to say. haha. but we'll all know them and i think my measurement is wrong for the biofit cause that shit was squeezing out my fat. poo, so that makes me wanna lose weight more lmao. or try to. i wanna lose TEN more pounds!!!!!! anyways then sandy had to go to work so she left then me and jean went to barnes and then we left and went to her house for her to change and get some library books and then we walked back to barnes to "study" with sarahkoh, amy, and moe of which they didnt study and i was just looking at the banksy <3 book. he is an amazing artist, not like art wise (well that too) but the depth of the meaning of his art is insane. i think that people are BORN with that kind of gift and that's not something you can acquire. but yea, then they were fooling around and then we went to fairfax library and then we left to go home. in general this was a busybody day. and i have to go poo.

so! i shall go poo and work on gabi's shoe's drawings hehe. before she comes home which is like now. tata.

overcasts

i hate overcasts ... and how they ruin all your plans!!!!

m fox

holy fuck shes so fucking hot

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today was the apush exam and it was pretty intense. i kept brain farting the whole day after the ap exam. like i tripped on the stupid mat and it hurted like a mother fucker. and i was walking around with it exposed to the air so i probably have AIDs and swine flu now haha.

oh yea, our school has an outbreak of swine flu. aiya. so now, i can't go to see miles after my ap exams. i am very mad because of that. i now have one more ap exam to go, which is ap bio but i'm not that worried about it .. but i still should study my ass off for that. the DBQ for apush was the freed blacks and enslaved blacks during 1775 - 1830 and i messed up a bit with marcus garvey hehe and the underground railroad. uh oh. but yea. other then that, my day was okay. i had a little adventure to myself for the afternoon. around fiveish, i tried to go to pali to see the league prelims but that failed and then i went on an hour and thirty minute dog walk with suni. it was pretty fun and suni's all pooped out now.

tomorrow i'm going to the beach with sandy to study, of which i'm eggcited for. and hopefully, i'll get rid of my stupid dang tan. i hope i got a dang 4 on that exam! i don't know what to write, i'm still having brain farts.

cutie freshies and sophmores :(

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i am on a mission to lose weight sort of. haha. excercise more then you eat.
i've bee studying for ap exams, and i am going to go to sleep early today because i have to study for insanity tmrw and on friday. shit. um, but yea imma try to define some more things and then i'm going to sleep at 12 and in order to that, i am going to get off and be productive ...

s.rhee

this is a shout out to sandy rhee because i couldn't go to her birthday dinner. unfortunately. so here i am sitting here on my toilet finishing going poo and about to go take a shower and typing her a shoutout. SO ANYWAYS, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDY RHEE, AND I KNOW I SAID THIS TO YOU ONLINE ON AIM AND ON THE VIDEO ON FACEBOOK BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND I HOPE YOU HAVE FUN TILL 12 AM! i enjoy being your friend and i hope we stay friends foeva! twisted buddies hahah.
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today was a semi-productive day; i went to the afterschool review session and then i went to b&n till nine to study for my aps. well, most of the time i was researching colleges that had pre-vet professional programs and there are so many! but yea, i studied some of ap bio and apush, but most of apush i was organizing the flashcards and it turns out that there are so many important people in the US History ever. its like the biggest card stack in the stupid pile out of almost 3oo or more ... i can NOT wait until next monday. oh yea, i gotta sign up for the SATs for June 6 and i need to get that field trip slip signed and get it turned in tmrw. i ran today too, but i ate so much shit ... i had the oreo slushie thingy from cafe aroma, then three oatmeal raisin cookies, then some chips, then i went to b&n and ordered a hot chocolate and some bagel with some cream cheese, so obviously someone isn't going to be eating dinner tonight. ugh. unless if its tofu and soysauce with fish flakes and green onions mmmm. OH YEA, i learned how to make bomb pico de gallo from natasha's mom, she didnt teach me but i kinda made it for her while she told me how to make it but its two bundles of cilantro chopped finely, four tomatos chopped into squares, one onion chopped, one green chili, and some lemon and some salt and peppa and voila! good bombass pico de gallo, in time for cinco de mayoooo. anyways, gotta finish mah pooing and gotta take a shower. i shall type later and study more.



favorite songs at the moment;
8282 - davichi
imaginary folklore - nujabes

hurry hurry

that song is addicting for me somehow and all i'm doing is replaying it over and over again. curse you naomi for letting me listen to it. theres 16 of them on one playlist on myspace and i'm replaying the playlist over and over again. lol.

i'm studying today so i'mma get off and study my ass off for apush and do my hw for apbio :(

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yum, lol. hopefully he doesnt read this and find his picture on mah blogger knowing that sandy sent the picture to me lmao. anyways, today was an okay day, had a good study session. the track meet today was soso and i did an okay 800 m time. hehe. but i gotta go to sleep for the stupid SAT IIs tmrw. byeee gnite.

yum.