dear God

life is so fucking hard. sometimes i just want to give up. and i feel like i need to get away from Los Angeles and live my own life somewhere else without all this bullshit going on. i love my parents and yet i hate them. i want to get out of this place. i want a peaceful life. i want this i want that. and yet again everythings self centered around me. i think i need patience, i need courage, i need repentment, i need Jesus Christ more than ever. i need another job. i wish i wasn't a female at the moment. i want out. i need air.

oh dear

if i am ever to get intoxicated, i need someone that will help me have fun ... not leave me aloneeee making me walk around in the middle of the street in the rain!! lol and texting up random ass people! omg. hahahaha. sigh juliechoi i wish you were with me yesterday :(((

do i really have noone to confide in to but God?

cousin