I'm not sure

whether I am supposed to be a lady? or myself. I think I'm going to start being myself and do the things I know I should do .. such as ... take a shower. HEHE.

what am I doing?

I need to learn how to feel in the present and stop thinking about what I need to do to make my life better physically.

dying

When I watch the smoke drift away from my cigarette, sometimes I see my soul departing with it.

back

dear world,

I have recently decided to write with blogspot again. It has so much sentimental value when I see myself from the past through the older entries. I can't believe I used to be like that but these days I am sad at who I have become. I don't express myself freely anymore and I have caught myself multiple times bringing myself down. Going to college and having to cooperate with a different society has forced me to grow up into someone I do not want to be. My mind and body are at war right now.

Fortunately, I have found reason to recognize this and I am glad for that. I am working on being the person who I naturally am without stopping myself to express freely. One of the main reasons why I'm writing in blogspot again. I have lost an output for all the life crazy thoughts in my head and when I keep them in there, they turn rotten. I have a lot of faults about myself that I'm trying to fix and it doesn't help when I don't share about them. Humans weren't creatures made to have secrets. Anyways, this is enough for the day and I already feel better.

More to come later,


TOODLES.

killuminati

there is an infection within the governments and they have forgotten what it's like to love.