I have lagged and been behind in posting up my journal entries ... I have only posted one! Haha. But after writing my one journal entry online, I assessed the way I wrote and the way of writing presents itself as cocky... or so I feel. So I have taken it into consideration to "write well" of what my heart expresses.

More to come! Just you wait!

3/8/2013

Grr. I had a few things I wanted to write down but I didn't get a chance to b/c I wasn't close to this notebook.
I do this out-of-focus thing. I'm pretty sure everyone does, but I'm conscious when I go out of focus. I feel somewhat like simply being. At this point in life, I don't feel as if I should worry about doing something that disobeys God. But maybe I shouldn't get too comfy. But I don't want to be fearing every sec of my life if I'm doing something wrong. My confidence will go down? I want to be naturally humble, all-natural! Natural relationship with God. Naturally genuinely natural. One day I will stop using the internet!

INTERNET ADDICTION EXISTS!

AND! Addiction causes depression, anxiety, all dem psychological problems!

           Homeless! I wonder if they continually do drugs!

         I feel like they'd be sick of feeling mentally powerless against their own mind!

I want to show them escape from that prison. I wasn't in it to their extreme, but I know what it feels like. And I've been saved! By God! Through Jesus.

    I'm pretty sure they know about Jesus but I wonder what issues they go through that they allow themselves to become weak to the devil and his words. Satan really entices the mind. I really would get tricked into staying in the mind and making up my own worlds w/o exploring and feeling the senses that God has provided me with. I'm not talking about doing drugs, I'm talking about feeling every nerve of my body and using it to glorify God by positively sending out energy in all that I do!

   I feel different.

Not only positively sending out energy but by increasing my knowledge of God with reading the Bible, I know how to deal with new situations with His guidance. 

   That video also makes me want to marry a man who hasn't been tainted by internet. I want to marry a nature man. Heh. God will provide. I def don't need a city boy who is tainted by the comfortableness of the city. Rawr. But time to go to class~

Tata!

Learning about Biology and sciences will help me gather ideas about leading a sustainable life. Global climate circulation is pretty interesting. So is Botany. Joanne is going to start working at Mendocino Farms and they're all about buying local + organic produce. I really want to know about agriculture too. If I end up at Bastyr in the near future, I hope I can gain lots of knowledge about Earth and life on it. 

God really has made a beautiful life. His creation is so great. I want to know God thru nature. I wonder when I'll be able to go on the 40 day adventure with God, no food and just water. But that's me getting excited about something that's gonna happen in the future. It's nice getting in tune with the present as long as I don't get lost in my mind. Chakra. Chi. Energy. I want God to infiltrate all energies and emit positive energies. Trying to practice it is hard to focus.

from paper to digital

i write in a journal everyday. raw thoughts onto permanent paper. no editing.

i'll type  them up here.

starting from today.

WAIT

I intended for jokes with my last post. It's nice to have online journals! And I believe that I will utilize all my online blogs for different themes. I have yet to come up with intended themes for my tumblr and wordpress but I shall come up with one soon.

Update:
Life has never been better. Of course, I have my little mini-stresses daily but overall the ability to cope and deal overcomes all. With the help of God on my side. He fuels my positiveness.

WOO.

Cheers to my return on blogspot!

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