dear God

life is so fucking hard. sometimes i just want to give up. and i feel like i need to get away from Los Angeles and live my own life somewhere else without all this bullshit going on. i love my parents and yet i hate them. i want to get out of this place. i want a peaceful life. i want this i want that. and yet again everythings self centered around me. i think i need patience, i need courage, i need repentment, i need Jesus Christ more than ever. i need another job. i wish i wasn't a female at the moment. i want out. i need air.