damn i fell again from that spiritual high and i can feel satan just pulling me back and back. and its hard cause i think i know who satan is using to lure me back into his stupid arms. but i wonder if God is just sending me to these places as tests. you know? its crazy. i know that God's in my heart but theres this feeling that i can't seem to shake off. and all that smoking shit, i feel like im falling into some kind of black hole. its what brings me closer to that darkness. it's kind of scary. and i'm really sick of it right now. i wanna take a long ass break and whoever says that shit is healthy. fuck that. that shit gives you coughs, munchies, and all these other unnecessary ailments in life. ugh. idk. but other then thattt, this old old feeling came up again and memories just keep flooding in from the times i spent with that person. ohoho. it makes me giddy and excitedd. it kind of brightened up my whole life. i love crushes hehe. i am going to go now and get ready for laura to pick me uppp.
sledoot.
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