misconceptions

i love being in a relationship with Jesus, because whenever I find myself frustrated at something, Abba is showing an area of my heart that needs untangling.

this morning, i got upset over an argument between my dad and i about people living in the past how they did not live long because they got sick from the food they ate ... which i understand ... but the one thing that "pissed me off" was the way he said, "You don't know what you're talking about" in this tone that really jarred my heart strings.

and i was processing this with God and He revealed that I don't take criticisms well because I think they're bad.

i wanna be able to take any sort of criticism whether constructive or non-constructive. i also don't want to be immature in arguing with my dad, but it's kind of sad to know thats how he responds to me when i behave in such a way ... it's weird. but maybe that's when Christ is strongest. that when we argue, i won't fall into the devil's trap and step back and beyond from what my dad expected.

i don't know why i have to prove myself to my dad though. it's weird.

yesterday, my friend helped me get over my bitterness towards my mom. to remember that my mom was a woman before she married my dad and that God has given her a second chance with my family. just as i want to love my mom as how God loves her, i too want to love my dad as how God loves him.

i still think my anger is unrighteous when i peeve at the fact how my dad says the Bible isn't truth ...
-_- but i don't want to take it that way, i'd rather have compassion on him for not believing. why do i assume that he should understand what i'm talking about, or what i'm trying to get at? he's imperfect, he's fallible, he's a man. hahaha. so weird to talk about parents as adults or peers. but i don't wanna see how the world sees peers. i wanna see them as how God wants me to see them ... as His Children. :D

man, i'm glad that i'm in a relationship with Jesus, because healing the relationship with my parents would not be possible without God.