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i was thinking about it, after Miles was born, how maybe, i dont want to go away from home. mabye i can go away from home after undergraduate college years, but for now, i wanna grow up with miles, malia, maddy, braden, rachelle, and jonas. i guess i can tolerate going to my dang family church, or find some other one until i graduate from college and go to graduate school. like i wanna grow up with my baby cousins and see them get into trouble and take them to ice cream and go to theme parks or just the park. i dont wanna go away now. i want them to remember me from since they were like three. i dont wanna burst into their life when they're like 8 and me fresh coming from college. like i remember my cousins/aunts since i was a baby and i want it to be like that for the little ones. and i donno if ms. j will be having another kid while i'm in college and i wanna be here for "it" too.

if i get into UPENN i'll go there, but if i get into UC Davis, i'll study there with a pre-vet major and a business minor. damn, and hoepfully UC Davis will have that ICU thing across to Japan. hehe. o my god, 37 more school days till i am done with my junior year and off to senior and to college applications and then to partying, and chillin and jobs, and boxing. 37 more days. just 37 more days.

damn, listening to revelry by kings of leon makes me just think about future shtuff. but i gotta sleep cause it's 12:07 and i just wanna rant about my future and what i'm gonna do.