truth hurts

damn, when i saw that horrible notification yesterday, it was like a boom to my mind. um, but yea now i know the truth and i feel relieved and super sad now that i really know whats going through his mind. imma try to get over it, and i feel like its already getting there now that i know that i have noooooo hope whatever. but i truly duly wish him happiness. i really wanna get off this subject now.

today was an okay day back to school. jean, julie and sandy are all sick. funny thing is, last time we all hung out, sandy got sick aha from our quadruple thing. haha. another thing im grateful for is my friends; naomi, natasha, gabi, lorrain, maureen, and many more for being there for me. and especially naomi, since i can connect with her since we both didnt go to fairfax high school or JBMS. and how everyone is already close with each other from middle school, but its like everyone already has their own LENMG. but yea, im not saying i hate them, cause i love all my friends at fairfax but do you get me??

i am also on my doirep so i am feeling very emotional and im listening to this song Destinee put on her myspace by John Legend - Everybody Knows. i really really really like it, and i'm playing it over and over again. shite. i think i am going to be sensitive for a couple days, and imma try not to. but i donno how to react to him .. do i just act normal? i think i should given the fact that he didnt even knowww. haha. but yea.

i didnt run today, cause i left the clothes in ms. j's room and i didnt wanna go all the way to the third floor and get it and get locked out of the locker room. i was trippin out cause at first period, ms. ikki was closing the lockerroom after everyone left. and i was thinking about it, i wanna try out for softball, and stuff. well, first i gotta try out boxing.

i also turned in my baskin robbin application, and applied to coffee bean online. i also got an application to Starbucks. i really need a job. and imma go to LA Trade Tech and apply for Summer school there for auto mechanics hehe.

ANYWAYS, lemme mope around and feel better by tomorrow. thanks for reading this, and for the haters (if there are any) you can keep hating but what's it gonna do to me? hah. karma's a bitch.

oyasumi.