amazing

i know it sounds like bullshit when people say "it's amazing what love can do" but i've seen a miracle happen before my eyes because of love. it really is amazing how far people go for love and what kind of hardships they have to endure because of love.

i've been sick for two days from food poisoning and that shit is the worst. throwing up three times in the first day and feeling true Hunger in the second. i dont understand how people can be bulimic because that shit is crazy. having my body involuntarily retch is one of the top things i don't ever want to encounter. and this was the first time i've felt true Hunger. it gnawed at my mind and made me double over in pain, but i couldnt eat because i was scared of throwing up. it also gave me one of the worst headaches ever. it made me realize that kids in Africa and all the third-world countries went through this 24/7. it was weird but i also thought about 1984. and i feel so helpless but i read through half of Brisingr and my internet barely came on today. i felt so relieved. and now i have to wait for the stupid test tmrw. i really dont wanna go to school tomorrow.

i was thinking, and i have so much shit to catch up on. especially college apps and scholarship apps. and i gotta go to work tomorrow too fml. sigh i cant express this shit in words. ill write later. g'bye

sledoot.