im stuck in the past. you know what they say, you can't forget your first love. like i like all these other guys but my thoughts come back to you and it comes back to thinking what we could've been if i didn't say those words to you back in 7th grade. okay seventh grade whatever long time ago. but its been egging at me for so long. and it boooothers me that it bothers me! i mean what the fuck. i try not to let it bother me i really honestly do. but i cant help it. ive been stuck in this position since like a long ass time. i don't even know if you hate me for doing that to you. i have no idea what the hell you feel. i wish i could say this all to you and i hate how i only talk to you when im not sober. i wish i could say hello to you so simply but this fear of being talked down just scares the shit out of me to say hello. and i wish we could sit down and have a deep heart to heart conversation and have silly moments just like how silly you are. i dont care how corny i sound because i rarely sound this genuinely corny. i wish i could text with you, i wish we could go places together, i wish i could break my promise just to be with you. man fuck my fucking heart.
ill think about this later.
fml.
sledoot.
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