ashamed

before, it was something to be proud and boastful about, but now it's something to be ashamed to do. i did something that i shouldn't have done, and i really need more resistance in doing stuff like that. i need strength from Him and from friends to help me to stop doing crap like that. ugh. i hate my personality. i hate being hypocritical. i need to stop, i really need to get away from this corrupted world.