i. am. so. worried. shit man, i wonder if i would need two jobs. this totally sucks. i really hate this economic crisis and all the expenses in the world and how the world is always wanting money and how the industries are so shitdamned corrupted. i really wish that our family would get back into the financial abundance that we USED to have for like couple of years. i worry for my mom especially since she's so frail and she's working so hard. i really need to pray. my whole family, the whole world needs strength right now. this cold harsh world is just a tad bit scary to live in right now. like if my mom gets sick or dies (which she wont) my family would get into big shit. like i'd probably get sent to another family, hideo would be forced to get a job, when he should be having a job already. and i especially do NOT want to move into some shitty ktwn apartment. i don't like ktwn at all. i'll always be reppin 310 westside palms area. and i need to start applying to scholarships and colleges. so much stress for now. only til december will i need to put up with this stressful stuff. man, now i gotta go and study for SATs and apply to scholarships.

on the brightside, i went to the library for 3 hrs today and took a practice SAT test from the backside of the book. imma correct it tomorrow and work on that shit. i don't even think i can even think of going out anymore. i don't have that luxury of going out for a while. anyways, i am goign to start looking at scholarships. toodles.