man i can be such a bitch sometimes. i think my head just expanded a little too much at the beginning of senior year. i realized that i need to pay attention to my friends more. and i am REALLY sorry for not being more of a friend. you know who you are. today was full of a lot of stuff. i had to do a lot of homework last night, and i was sleeping at 3 a.m. for the past few days. i have a feeling that imma crash soon if i don't get sufficient enough sleep. there were a couple quizzes today, and then CEDARS orientation, then jang tuh.

i really hate it when i'm a bitch cause that's just not who i am. but i realize that i haven't been as jolly as i used to be in my past years at high school. i don't find myself smiling or laughing as much as i used to. this summer was such a blessing and a curse. agh, but i'm trying. i really am sorry though that i was just ignoring and that i've been getting distant. i'll remember my status and try to return to who i used to be.

and making such early promises just end up being empty promises. i gotta take in the consequences of making such early promises in my life cause there are way too many temptations in my life and surround me. i am so tired. my eyes are closed as i am typing this. i will go to sleep. gnite.

toodles.